My Quest

My father’s diagnosis with cancer has lead he and I to several conversations surrounding religion. I have begun to research and study Buddhism. I have found that I truly enjoy what I have learned and continue to research. I have bought two books on the subject. I mentioned my interest to my parents and they [...]

End of Summer Suicide Attempt

So that’s it, it’s over. That thing that lasts about 3 months in Michigan. Summer has said it’s goodbye and all I can think about is snow, leafless trees, and filthy salt covered roads. Seasonal depression is a bitch. We kicked off the end of summer with one final hurrah at the parent’s house. About [...]

Review

How was your weekend? Mine was full of thought and mindless worry. I’m still smoking even though I promised myself I would quit. If you can’t keep a promise to yourself how can you keep one for someone else? Friday was the usual, Saturday I hibernated the entire day. Pondering my death and giving myself [...]

I SUX @ LIFE

Why must it take a tragedy to bring people together?
What does it say about someone, when during that tragedy, all they want to do is run?
I’m tired of looking for the key. I need to find peace and not sure how one goes about such a thing. There are a vast amount of outlets to [...]

Overcast

The clouds are back. Acutually I haven’t been feeling well for almost two weeks now. The symptoms include:

Hot flashes
Feverish feeling sans real fever
Still have the burning feeling in my thighs
Funny feeling in my mouth like just before your about to puke your guts out

I know I need to find a new doctor. I need to [...]

My Attempt

I could hear his cough travel up the stairs to my room. He’s always coughed, but now it’s different. I lit up a cigarette because that’s what I do. I went to his carepage, it’s like a Myspace for people with cancer. I tried to write, I tried to articulate something sans sarcasm or blatant [...]

The Vision

I’ve been meaning to tell you a million lies, but you keep on asking me how I’m doing as if you really mean it. I’ve meant to point out to you that this was your chance and that I’m sorry you didn’t take it. Too bad I’ve bestowed upon you thousands. Thousands of those chances. [...]